Hi there everyone. I can't believe how long it has been since I wrote anything here, months have gone by and my life has been changing and evolving. Some things have gotten better and some things have definitely gotten worse...the things that have gotten better are great but the things that have gotten worse- or out of control really got away from me. One thing in particular was this blog. I remember loving to write here and using it as an outlet for my emotional needs and for me to push some of the anxiety in my life out. This place was a part of my healing and my journey and I just lost it. I left it behind and wow it made a difference. I guess I should start where I left off. The last post here was about my birthday and while it was a good birthday everything was already piling up on top of me- stress from work was growing immense and my social life and other obligations pushed my workouts to the back burner. I have managed to maintain my weight within a healthy range ( ...
Sometimes the only thing people here or see are the good and strong moments. It is really hard to show people the weak moments. I just wrote this like half an hour ago...sometimes you need to remind yourself that you are actually sick and that even though you are technically in recovery that it doesn't mean you have been "healed". For anyone who is wondering, this is what a not so great meal time looks like to me: "Why do I do this to myself? I do this same thing over and over and i never seem to learn....i feel like Prometheus- a man who did a great deed and then was punished over and over every single day his action. I convince myself that I deserve a treat, that I have been good, that I am hungry, that it will all be OK....and then I eat, and eat, and eat without thinking or hesitation and then....in the moments after, when all is said and done, i hate myself for having forced so much food in my body. I hate myself in those moments after when it feels like eve...
Hi there all! I recently put out there that I was looking for topics for my blog and I got some great questions/topics...IDK if I could write an entire blog post about them so I'm going to lump them all up into one Q and A post. If it goes well this might be something that I do from now on. 1. What is in my gym bag? Well I think to start off with...I don't really use a whole lot of special things. Mostly my gym bag ends up with things everyone needs: deodorant, clothes for the day, toothbrush and toothpaste, makeup, etc. I don't really use anything special- I do have boxing gloves from Ever-last in my bag right now. I also use a belt when doing any really heavy lifting- it is a Scheik- you can find it here: https://www.roguefitness.com/schiek-2004-lifting-belt-pink 2. Do you write your own programming? Yep! So right now I am working on split days. Upper body is one day, then lower body...and I rotate out what heavy movements I am doing. A sample upper body day wou...
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